As Is Expected

I've been intending on blogging over the past few days. My experience over these days has been up and down.

As Is Expected

 

Yesterday was the first day I went to therapy, and told Ryan, my therapist 'This is the first day I've not wanted to come here, it's nothing personal, but this is feeling really hard today, it hurts!'...he laughed (in a kind way), and said we'd see what we could do about that! By the end of our session I was feeling  slightly better as to this point in my journey. It was tough, but I did well!

 

It was discouraging, frustrating, humbling before I had my knee replaced to have the limits I had, to not be able to walk to the end of a block and back without my cane, pain. Every step I felt pain. Right now I am at a similar point with my new knee and learning to walk on it. It is very discouraging that I'm doing everything right, everything I'm supposed to and to walk to the end of the block and back, for one of my two walks of the day, with my walker, is difficult and I have pain. I let myself cry once in a while...feels good, and I earn it!

The positive: which I must always try to see or IT will beat me, is that it is a different pain.

 

I am making progress. My progress is slow. My fibromyalgia began to flare last week. Dr. Z made the decision that my repetitions in PT would be cut in 1/2, from 20 down to 10. He reminded me that I'm a 'special' case. That my recovery may be slower, but that that is ok.

(It is difficult to not be bothered by my fibro, but me stressing will make it all worse...so again, I'm trying to not let me it bother me and just go with it.)

Do what I can do and surrender the remainder to the Universe!

(Phew, that's a tough one at times, LoL)

 

I picked strawberries today, after a cup of coffee outside and circling my mom and dad's yard with my walker! I felt such freedom and solace while breathing the fresh outdoor air, feeling the grass on my feet and just being outside! A very welcome change from my couch/bed days, which I'm back to now (must s till . Mother nature provides us with all we should need in life. To experience it's abundance in any form and feel a breeze, the rays of the sun while touching a blade of grass, dirt or mud, is a amazing. Healing. Namaste.